Hi again, I just want to write a follow up after fernz and I reconciled. (if you haven't read my previous story look for the story titled ferns I had it posted some couple of days ago.) We remained a good couple for almost like 4 years. But this time I'll be writing about what we both experienced ass fuck (as in pwetan kami) we both thought it wont be that good coz we thought that if we fuck each other its gonna hurt us both. Well not until I met another guy, let call him jazel, jazel is already a college student his like around 20-21 something like that.
Although his not my type coz his maangas nga and bossy, but he still capture me with his looks his handsome mestizo but short in height I'm 5'2 his 5'1. I like short guys eh.! We'll jazel is like every other arrogant guys who just like fucking and fucking and doesn't really care if they hurts you or not. Jazel got big cock and I got deny it. Well he had fucked me! And like what I told you he is sexually aggressive. I can of feel like his an idiot! Well I learned from him though I learned how to fuck smoothly without letting your partner get hurt. Well one exciting thing I have had enjoy during some couple of times of being unfaithful to my former lover. ( hahaha as if nagging kami, but nothing really serious between me and fernz were just typically having sex and that's it). Well ditto ko unang siniubakan magpapwet kay fernz because I know I like him so one time while we were having sex I ask him to fuck me. He was shock at first and ask me if I can do it because it going to hurt me real hard, I told him well because you know how does it feel the best thing that you can do is do it as if I'm a girl and do it slowly.
With addition: you know what its your turn now to revenge with what I had to you, your already 14 and I'm older than you, and I think we both can manage it ok please fuck me real hard with pleasure. So that what he did, he did it real slow when he was entering to me and I like it. Hes like going crazy because of the pleasures his having sobrang sarap at libog its like heaven ika nga. Well we always do that na eh. So minsan sinabihan ko rin sya na fuck ko rin sya, natkot siguro sya kasi nakita ko sa mukha nga nanatakot at namumula sobrang schock yatang ang mahal ko but I assured him don't worry this time you'll enjoy it for sure. Wow umu oo rin sya sobrang excited talaga ako so I put saliva na agad sa titi ko at sap wet nya I told him to bend over on front of me and relax for you to enjoy and savor the moment. So yun pinasok ko sya di ko mapigilang ma ungol sa sarap * note nasa bahay kami nila* so yun I continue lang with what I'm doing I told him if ever he feel hurt yumuko lnag sya ng maayos pero sa simula palang parang nasasarapan na yata sya kasi madulas yung pwet nya at di ako nahirapan pasukin sya so ooooooohhhhhhhhhhhh,, ahhhhhhhhh ang sarapa aaahhhhhh hmmm ang sarap mo fernz nag sikip ang init ang lambot ng pwet mo yun ang mga katagang namutawi sa bibig ko habang kantot kantot ko sya, nagulat nalanag ako ng bigla nyang sabihin aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh siiiiiiiiggggeeeeee ang sarap mo pare hay naku! Mas lalo akong nalibugan kasi naman alam kong lalaking lalaki talaga si fernz kahit bata pa sya na nakatikim ng lalaki pano naman kasi may nililigawan syang babae. But despite those we remained tahimik lang sa aming relationship coz we both believe we love each other but there is no such thing na magiging kami.
Leaving fernz behind
Cellphone:
Me: fernz where are you now?
Me: fernz please do reply. I'd like to see you today and have fun with you I'm so libog na.
Fernz didn't reply.
So I send him pasaloads.
Me: fernz I sent you two pasaloads already do me a favor reply ASAP where you now?
Since I got no reply from him I put on my clothes and fix myself coz I'm thinking of seeing him in school I know his there… but the hell is he! it Saturday no school… upon arriving at schoo I notice that there are so many people in the school especially in the auditorium and they are all in a elegant attire… hhhmmmm? Well good thing I put on my good one I realize na meron pala kaming school program.. so yun I look for fernz coz I know his there somewhere pumunta ako somewhere close sa washroom and saw him there standing with some guys mga tropa nya ( see lalaki sya may boysgroupsya) well he approach me and told me he cant come with me his the camera/vieodeoman sa program I understand his situation kahit naiinis ako. Well ng watch nalang ako sa palabas and oks naman yung program nila.
Dumating yung gabi I told fernz I'lll be in the plaza coz I have to play basketball game I even asked him to come not knowing magkakampi pala kami. I'm on the first batch na sumalang pero isang grupo lang kami. Mas magaling akong mag laro ng basketball kesa sa kanya kasi naman athletic ako I think the thing that's me makes me good in playing basketball is kasi milo player ako sa track and field marmi na kasing akong trophy na nauwi (champion laguae) I saw him smiling and watching me so nakakagana but the whole game is not really focus on me kasi sa totoo lang yung bestfriend ko yung pinak magaling sa lahat he plays the game kasi like no tomorrow tapos yun nanalo kami. di nya naman ako nilapitan ng smile lang from afar… I dunno bakit ganun his like making a gap between us but I understand that kasi baka mahalata pa kami ng mga ibang tao. So ng play din sya tas panalo din sobrang saya ng night nayon kahit walang ngyari samin kahit naman during the game yung bawat isa yung aming inspiration. So Monday came and so schooling resume. One afternoon I felt something really different and felt stupid about myself that same day I felt so lonely I never felt like this before, even I'm with my friends during that time. After our P.E. CLASS. I went to the main campus where I usually go whenever I feel bad. And to My dismay I saw fernz waving at me. ( this is what I'm talking about I don't wanna see him today coz I don't want to let him know what inside of me.) I went to where he is and handed him a letter I had written the night before. This what exactly in the letter;
Dear fernz,
I hate to let you know this time that I'm about to go in some couple of weeks from now. I'll be going to manila and I'll be staying there for some couples of months coz I have to fix some papers for my preparation to migrate to Canada. It hurts me more leaving you behind coz I believe I'll be missing you somehow. I wish I didn't dream about going to other country, but reality is “dream came true”. I hate to say this that I dunno know if I'm coming back here or not, coz I'm with my family, I hate to let you know that I already love you even I know I'm not gay and your really straight . But despite those I love you fernz that all I want to let you know. Please take good care of yourself and forget me not coz I will never forget you. Fernz please say you love me too before I go. See yha this all for now..
Jlo
After seeing him finish the letter, I saw his saw turned red and I blush and I turned around and ran away from him, few second I just realize I'm really crying hard now. The smile on his face, his teeth, his body figure, his soft voice, his being a gentlemen will never be forgotten that all I was telling myself that moment.
Week passed, October 2005 before November I met up with fernz in the main campus of our school, we sat a couple distant away from each so nobody will notice us taking sincerely I he smiled at me and I start talking about our plan going to Canada, and I don't know if I'm still coming back I even told him the pain inside and I long for a longer time with him then He gave me a smile and I nod my head I said I have to get going now I'll be missing you, whoa!!!!! Hmmm?? I suddenly felt his grasping my hand and said won't you want o hear something inside of me? So I sat down again and nod my head and told me “I love you” his saying it as if he feels I'll be rejecting him, and to my surprise he cried. I never thought this thing would happen I never know that this could happen to him ( his so lalaki to cry just like that,) hmmm it like his saying those words from his heart. I tremble and felt cold inside I dunno know what to do, so I ran home quickly and went to our porch and think deeply. It hurts it really hurts…. I don't want to hear it from him that he had fallen in love with me .I thought were just there to pleasure each other. I can't say a word but cry inside ( no shedding of tears, just my heart beating so fast and felt na sasabog na yata). Dibah kasi its hard when you know somebody loves you tapos iiwan mo lang din msakit din yong pakiramdam mo parang sasabog puso mo hirap mg hinga. Napag isipan ko nalang na to leave it just like that than bother thinking about it.
I also wrote him a letter to please take good care and I still want to see you sometimes before my flight to Canada.
So decemcer 2005 I flew to Makati, manila and had medical exams there. It took me a little bit longer coz I had med problems. I stayed their for some couples of months. Atlast I was given the message that I can still take time to have my vacation while waiting for the results and visa. I didn't go anywhere but instead went back to Palawan. Happy and glad to see him again I surprise him, in our school campus he looks so sad that day and his face turned happy when he saw me. My heart jump for joy and I know his too happy to see me again but I told him I wont stay long and I'll be leaving pinas for good, and he told me its ok things are a lot better now. U can go on my own way now. He is strong enough not to feels hurt. Thanks God he understands me. Months past and graduation is over, it was Saturday and our school is holding a program I went there not to attend the program but meet up with fernz, he ask me for the last intimate sex and we both like it. It was like heaven and we grave for more I wanted to let him know that this is maybe the last and I wish it won't end , but reality is I really have to go. Summer is over june 4 before school starts of june 2006, I went back to manila for my final flight and November 18 2006 I flew to Canada. Without letting him know I had left already but with him my promise I shall return. I never go back thinking of him again coz I know it gonna hurt me, I instead I spend my life looking for a girl or go single. I met Karen travis but we never lasted long, but atleast I know we both became close to each other at least were still friends. I went to Moosonee Canada were native people are leaving and right now am still single and looking for almost 2 years now. I don't want there girls here neither their guys here, am looking for someone serious in relationship from the Philippines.
