It was an ordinary day. I was walking in hurry to my 1st subject which is calculus. "fuck, naka-lock na yung pinto" nasabi ko pagdating sa tapat ng room namin "absent na naman. puta talagang prof. ____y na yun." it's not that i need to hear the lectures, in fact, i think i don't need it. She's a pretty lame teacher besides, I am pretty good in math so i'm totally not worried. what's running in my mind is that i've made a couple of absenses in that class and that stupid professor might drop me in her subject. I walked away, disappointed. i decided to just eat in the food gallery. Alone.

Sa food gal, i saw jude. okay, being absent in that subject of that never-heard-of-the-word-diet professor wasn't bad at all. i was very pleased to see him. Magisa lang din syang kumakain. Nakatitig lang ako sa kanya, sa mukha nya na hind ko makalimuTan kahit gustuhin ko, ng bigla syang napatingin sa gawi ko. Parang biglang tumigil panandalian ang oras, ramdam kong namula yung mga pisngi ko, kaya iniwas ko agad ung tingin kosa kanya. parang nakita kong napangiti sya bago ko tuluyang iniwas yung tingin ko sa kanya. "tangna, nhuli nya ako" nagsisisi talaga ako kasi hindi pa ako out at i don't have the nerves to do that. Seriously, it freaks me out - what those people will say about me being gay. Pero, naisip ko din na parang natuwa naman sya, at tiningnan din niya ako.

Nagmamadali ako dahil na rin siguro sa hiya kaya inubos ko agad ang clubhouse at isang can ng choco drink. Bago ako umalis eh, tumingin muna ulit ako kay jude, pero nahuli na naman nya ako at aktong tatayo sya at pupunta sa gawi ko kaya nagmadali akong umalis. Was he mad? Grabe. Gusto ko na talagang malusaw sa hiya.

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